Hospice came out today for what is most likely the last time. They said that my grandmother has only hours left.
I thought I had already grieved for her, but when I got that news it hit me pretty hard. There's a big difference between knowing a loved one is going to pass and coming to the finality of that fact.
I'm thankful that I was able to say my goodbye today. She's been sleeping almost the entire time for about a week now. She wakes up for a minute or two every once in a while. I went downstairs and asked to be alone with her. I sat next to her bed and held her hand and was talking to her and she actually woke up during that time. I know what I felt but I didn't know what to say, if that makes sense. What do you say to someone that's been a second mother to you? I told her I loved her and told her I'd miss her. I wasn't easy to do that, but I'm grateful I was given the chance.
3 comments:
There's no easy way to watch someone leave.
Be at peace.
I hope she isn't experiencing much pain.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Glad you're getting the chance to say goodbye. That will help you in the long run, though it doesn't feel like it now.
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