Monday, November 24, 2008

Hospice came out today for what is most likely the last time. They said that my grandmother has only hours left.

I thought I had already grieved for her, but when I got that news it hit me pretty hard. There's a big difference between knowing a loved one is going to pass and coming to the finality of that fact.

I'm thankful that I was able to say my goodbye today. She's been sleeping almost the entire time for about a week now. She wakes up for a minute or two every once in a while. I went downstairs and asked to be alone with her. I sat next to her bed and held her hand and was talking to her and she actually woke up during that time. I know what I felt but I didn't know what to say, if that makes sense. What do you say to someone that's been a second mother to you? I told her I loved her and told her I'd miss her. I wasn't easy to do that, but I'm grateful I was given the chance.


boilerdowd said...

There's no easy way to watch someone leave.

Be at peace.

Plang said...

I hope she isn't experiencing much pain.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

J Money said...

Glad you're getting the chance to say goodbye. That will help you in the long run, though it doesn't feel like it now.